Anyway, this is the first week so you'll know that my inbox wasn't exactly overflowing with Spits. So, I decided that I might as well post all of the ones I got. I don't want to forget any of the very first entries plus I love all of them. I wouldn't be able to narrow it down anyway!
Thanks to everyone who is sent stuff in, followed or became friends with CHTITY on Bebo. There's a Myspace, too, but my password stopped working and the Myspace help system is less than helpful! Hopefully I'll be able to use that account again soon.
So here you are. The first set of Spits... enjoy!
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I don't understand why as people get older they drift apart. It's not fair.
I Don't Understand why I'm so absorbed in myself, whether it's self hatred or vanity.
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I forget sometimes that there are other people around me.
I forget sometimes that other people have feelings.
I forget sometimes that not everyone is as privileged as me.
I forget sometimes that I can’t be perfect.
I forget sometimes that I have limits.
I forget sometimes that I am not the center of the universe.
I forget sometimes that not everyone likes me.
I forget sometimes that I’m not as funny as I think I am.
I forget sometimes that people like their space.
I forget sometimes that my parents love me.
I forget sometimes that my boyfriend cares about me.
I forget sometimes that people trust me.
I forget sometimes that bitching about people is bad.
I forget sometimes that not all my dreams can come true.
I forget sometimes that maybe I should just be myself and not worry about what everyone thinks about me.
I forget that I am my own person. That I am an individual and nothing can or will change that. I need to listen to myself, think about my actions and need to take two steps back and take a deep breath. I need to respect my parents and their decisions. I need to think about those around me and not put my troubles on them; they’ve got their own. I need to trust my boyfriend and love him with all my heart. I need to get over myself. I need to take a look at myself and set myself goals that I can achieve and not ridiculous things that I can’t get. I need to help those less fortunate than me and make sure that I am aware of them. I need to be thankful. I need to appreciate the things I have.
I sometimes forget all that.
I forget sometimes that I'm still not yet an adult.
I forget that I'm still young and I have all my life to evaluate myself if there's no more important matter.
I forget sometimes that I'm going to die one day. I'm a hypocrite, I tell everyone to stop worrying and to live life fully because now's the only time to do it. But I don't take my own advice. I worry, I stress, I cry, I fear, I hesitate. For once, the thought of death is positive, as it makes me want to live, I hope I don't forget.
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I love forgetting that i don't understand how emotions work. You can have the same situation and one person will get mad, the other sad, the other jubulant. I know it's all how one person perceives the situation, but aren't emotions supposed to work the same for everyone?
I love being young and being with my friends.
I Love...going home at the end of the day, but...TRAFFIC SUCKS!
I Love losing myself.
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I don't understand why i can't get over him. I hate everything about him. The fact he lied. Told me one thing. Then went against it. The fact it hurt me to notice he had someone else to love. And we will never happen again.
BUT!
I love the fact i've risen above that all and lasted 5months without him. Being single has never beem soo much fun. No one to ever keep me down. Just letting myself enjoy life. And tbh. I think i can wait til College before i go worrying about anyone special.
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